Final Nail

And so ..

There i go..
Putting the final nail into a beautiful ensemble of my D****

Life has always been about learning's
some we cherish..
some we wish, we could undo or never learnt in the first place
and, some we blindly believe in and are proud of..

Life is livings those moments they say...
Moments.. we cherish
Moments we wish, we never existed to live through
And, moments we live our life for...

And Today,
I had the learning of my life..
The Moment of truth...

Life beyond...

Well life seems to have come full circle..
when some strange distant memories come back to haunt you again ..
reminding you of the same mistakes you did ages ago ..

And I did it again ...
A strange little learning i had earlier in my life..
That Every investment does not come with a dividend tag..
Some of them are cornerstones of your passion..
Of what truly drives you and excites you..

Through my journey in life..
I have had constant gains and pains..
most of either side of the timeline..
a strange feeling of guilt overhung on my head..

Today i am cleansed yet again..
For benefits have been forthcoming
Had been blinded to the worldly truth..
lost traction of the true self..

I cannot say my investments have not been fruitful..
Most of them have been and continue to be..
Its a little disheartening
That i envisage to have the fruit and admire it as well..

A mistake i made earlier in my life
and continue to do so even until today..

Am glad my learning improved many a deal..
my thoughts more clear
and vision more shaped..

Daily exercise it has been
as i discover and rediscover my true calling.
or so i believe..

I have always been sincere ...
and forthcoming..
And i am glad i am.. for today i realise..

It beyond words to describe what it is to feel the pain
of losing self.. lost into true self..

I am glad i realised it yet again. ..
and yet again my strife towards to parting with any expectations..
invest i shall without any hope..

Dead I...

For thoughts which are as clear as crystal at times;
and beleaguered at times..
I seek recourse and direction this final time
For i am lost
Intelligence is so far for me..

It is so difficult for me to understand my trouble;
For i am neither happy nor true;
Instead i lost my course offlate...

I have come to be one of my own devils..
haunting myself daily...
for today I know neither destination nor origin..

I am a lost for i have nothing to do..
Have also given up my expedition to find stuff
that interest me and seek to surge in destiny
and lose my soul..

I am a "lost and dead" soul
Living my motions for this world..

Lost I was
Beleaguered I am
and Dead I shall be soon...

Liberation

For my love...
Ornate with lovely stones..

I wish i could convey my thoughts;
And
I fail myself again ..
I fall short of words yet again...

Is this passion..
Or Love..
I am not quite sure..
I realise i have come a long way off my course...
for i know now neither the direction nor the destination.....



As i stare at my guiding lights
and gaze at their subtle beauty..
So simple.. subtle and yet distinct..

Beautiful Little stars
I wish to hold them
close to my heart and protect them..

For they reflect my love..
Simple subtle and tender....
Or so i believe..

I wish i could shout and celebrate my love..
But i guess its not me.....

Sorry lady..
for I have never been so vocal..
Nor can i ever be..

Beautiful Stars...
their appearance so tender and fragile..
Mystique with a twinkle..

Beautiful little stars..
I wonder if i could ever comprehend their beauty..

Ornate with brilliance of a master craftsmen..
Decorating the bosom of my lovely lady..

oh my lady love..
I never seem to get tired of your beauty..
I wish
I could hold you onto myself..

if only these stars were not between us..

Twinkle

Amongst the collection of stars
I see daily..
I am amused at you..
Reason I know not of..
Your beauty so pure and true;
It bestows me an hope to live..

To survive these dark waters;
or stay afloat to catch a glimpse of your beauty...

I hope to swim across these high tides,
One day , to reach thy shore;
Where i dream to lay in your arms;
One day I am certain my dream shall come true..

One day soon ....
I hope and pray..

Black Pearls

Her beautiful eyes,
Full of life and passion...

I wish to live their dreams..
In all their glee and glory;
Experience her nascent innocence;
Her tender expression of joy..
Her acceptance of faith .. so gentle..
Live her dreams for this one single moment..
For her
For these Beautiful eyes...
I wish I could live this one single moment...

Win(:D)s

For these winds,
They promise an insight into nature so entwined
Ornate with reality and passion;

I took this hostile path ..
Neither was I completely aware..
Not totally ignorant..
A strange feeling of guilt and merry;
For I know today shall die soon....
And tomorrow is still young and innocent...